My Thoughts

I got an email from my niece and I got so worried because she was in trouble. I want to be there for her but we are too far--- I am too far to be with her. I hate the people who refused to give her to me. She should be here with me now, with abundant good oppportunities for her future. I can't do anything but be here worrying so much for her. I can only wish and long for the day that she will be here with me soon...

Anyway I want to share you some of the thoughts I had for today--- I was taking a rest to the same place at the same time, where I can not see or observe different things that I am not supposed to see. But for some reason I sat on the opposite side and I was able to notice or see something odd. Something that annoyed me for some reason. I know I shouldn't think about something I shouldn't think, but I just cannot help myself but to utter some words. I was just wandering what was so special inside that container that makes them look like some kind of flies who chased some nutriment-- I am amazed to see her carrying that big container everyday for a number of heads waiting to be supplied but most of the time, these heads were so eager to supply themselves that they couldn't wait for her, so they have to open it by themselves--- I was able to take a little on my mouth sometime ago, but it was just some natural nutriment made at home and I didn't notice any special reason for some people to be allured by it.. Not unless these people have some personal reasons to save a little--hahahhaah( kapal)---- As the number of flies increase, the size of the container increase as well. My mouth cannot declare it as a charitable deeds for these people are not homeless or unfortunate. Perhaps her generosity made it all that even if she works double time just to show how generous her heart is.

Another thoughts I had for someone--- I just can't see the reason why she was acting so different from the rest... I just cannot help it but to noticed her eyes with hate towards me for some reason. Is it my independence against her dependence? I cannot stand someone depending on me for some superficial and childish reasons---- Hate in her eyes for my laughter and smile for I still refused to believe on what I think I am to her-- that she hates happiness in me. I guess I am just paranoid and I hope I am....
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