Confusion Of Acceptance

Temporary insanity, confusion and destruction on my regular daily routine is what causing all these time. I guess I finally have the answer but just having some hard time accepting it. I will try my best not to be destructed this time now that I know I shouldn't. I will continue my life as it is and be happy for what God has given me.

At least now I know, it's not a choice but something that can not be control by the mind. It was just this doubt that is keeping me out of accepting it. I was so traumatize by these prolonged believe that it was just an illusion of happiness. Continues destruction of happiness. Oh God help me get through these. Thank you for all the blessings

Which Path

Everything is quiet around me except for what is inside me. Smiling on the outside but completely confuse from the inside. I don't know how to take everything. But something inside is trying to shout for justice; for some answers....WHY?

Something tells me it's not fair. Something tells me it's going to happen again and makes me so afraid. Something tells me, I should turn away and go on a new path. But just can't seems to figure out which path is the right path.

Is this a message from God that I have to learn something from? A change in ME?? I can't see where and how and why?

How Long?

I was viber chatting with my friend about her divorce with her husband. How she was able to cope up after 23 years of marriage. Just fall out of love due to lack of understanding, respect about each others needs.

How long do we have to stay in a relationship that is not functioning as we wanted it to be? How long do we have to shallow what we believe that is right in return of staying in a relationship?

A never ending questions that only US can answer.

Show Me The Way

I don't know if this is a miracle, but I just feel healed before and after the household meeting. I just hope that God hear all my pains. I pray that he will show the way according to his will because right now, I am totally lost. It's like a never ending going back and forth which makes me feel that it needs to end. And if it is really the message, then I pray to show me how. And if it is not, then show me the way.

Dark Room

Still in the dark trying to find my way out from this misery. Is it just me?? Is it just me who is locking myself in this dark room?

I am trying my best to understand and accept, but time comes where I just cant help it but feel the pain.

I feel so alone.,, Noone is beside me whom I can lean on. Someone that I know I can depend on when I am getting lost and need some guidance