Deleting Old Blogs

I deleted 7 blogs on my account because there are so much to look at. I created so many blogs for more than 10 years now and I have grown and learned so much as a blogger. I did a lot of mistakes and a lot of changes in this blog, but since this is the very first public blog, I have no plan of deleting this.

I created many blogs because back then, the payout for blog advertising is quite good. I actually become so addicted to it. But now, everything is so cheap because a lot of bloggers are accepting blog advertising for a very cheap price, particularly on those coming from developing countries like my home country, Philippines. I can't blame them though, due to this economy, and if you will convert dollars to peso, its good enough for them to make decent income living in the country.

So for me, it's a big waste of time to accept less then $5 for more than 50 words. So I will just focus on using my blogs as my personal use and advertising my own products.

Pain After Vacation

Vacation is over, and I am back to reality of my busy life. I have so many things to do but I cannot do it because of my stiff shoulder and neck. I feel a a lot better now after my massage and chiropractic adjustment yesterday, but headache is still slowing me down. I did my exercise this morning to help loosen up my stiff muscles and I feel great since I have been wanting do my workout for quite sometime now. I hope this is already a good start.

I am sure that those people who keeps snooping on others people lives are furious to learn that I was absent for 2 nights right after my vacation. Racing their eyebrow !!!! hahhahaha!! Who cares??? This is my life and I will do what I want.

Avoiding More Complication

I was having a conversation with my hubby's drinking buddies last Saturday night, who happen to be my friends too at work. I didn't took a picture to post on Facebook anymore for lesser Hate from my haters.

Just talking about someone and realized that it is really a lot better to avoid socializing to people whom I feel I shouldn't trust. Not because I hate them but to avoid more complication.

Hating For Nothing

Seeing those pictures makes me HATE and I know I shouldn't, so I WON'T. Everything is just about MIND SET. I Hate it but I shouldn't coz it doesn't have anything to do with my life.

So I don't know why my haters keep hating me even if I have nothing to do with their lives. Being me has nothing to do with anything with them. They should realize that hating someone won't do anything. And the worst thing is, making me see their hate on me makes me feel I am important, and I have everything that they should be jealous of even if I don't have anything to be jealous of. hahhaha!!

So wake up My Haters, you are just making me feel Important. You are Hating me For Nothing

Deleted and Add Request Again?

Funny how some people on my list delete me and then add me again. This happen more than 2 to three times with this person. I don't know why he have the guts to delete me and request to add him again... Oh my goodie!!!

So I accepted his request again only to find out that he is just trying to show off something. hahahahhaha!!!! So does it mean that, he can't stand things that I post with my life, that he thought is a sign of showing off?, so he deleted me, and now that he has something to show off, he added me so I can see it? hahahhahaha!!!

Life can never be perfect. Everyone's life has ups and down. That's life. Its how to face those ups and down is what matter. So we shouldn't care about how other people run their life, and just be happy with what we have.

So bring it on and show it off. The question is, can you handle what you see? Whether its material or not, look at yourself why you have to delete someone just because you can't handle the smile and happiness in their posts. Masama mainggit sa kapwa!!!

Confusion Of Acceptance

Temporary insanity, confusion and destruction on my regular daily routine is what causing all these time. I guess I finally have the answer but just having some hard time accepting it. I will try my best not to be destructed this time now that I know I shouldn't. I will continue my life as it is and be happy for what God has given me.

At least now I know, it's not a choice but something that can not be control by the mind. It was just this doubt that is keeping me out of accepting it. I was so traumatize by these prolonged believe that it was just an illusion of happiness. Continues destruction of happiness. Oh God help me get through these. Thank you for all the blessings

Which Path

Everything is quiet around me except for what is inside me. Smiling on the outside but completely confuse from the inside. I don't know how to take everything. But something inside is trying to shout for justice; for some answers....WHY?

Something tells me it's not fair. Something tells me it's going to happen again and makes me so afraid. Something tells me, I should turn away and go on a new path. But just can't seems to figure out which path is the right path.

Is this a message from God that I have to learn something from? A change in ME?? I can't see where and how and why?

How Long?

I was viber chatting with my friend about her divorce with her husband. How she was able to cope up after 23 years of marriage. Just fall out of love due to lack of understanding, respect about each others needs.

How long do we have to stay in a relationship that is not functioning as we wanted it to be? How long do we have to shallow what we believe that is right in return of staying in a relationship?

A never ending questions that only US can answer.

Show Me The Way

I don't know if this is a miracle, but I just feel healed before and after the household meeting. I just hope that God hear all my pains. I pray that he will show the way according to his will because right now, I am totally lost. It's like a never ending going back and forth which makes me feel that it needs to end. And if it is really the message, then I pray to show me how. And if it is not, then show me the way.

Dark Room

Still in the dark trying to find my way out from this misery. Is it just me?? Is it just me who is locking myself in this dark room?

I am trying my best to understand and accept, but time comes where I just cant help it but feel the pain.

I feel so alone.,, Noone is beside me whom I can lean on. Someone that I know I can depend on when I am getting lost and need some guidance

Whisper Of Gossip

I can see someone whispering here and there. It's an obvious whisper of a gossip about someone hahhahhahha!!! I am so glad I don't have to hear any of those petty whispering about someone. I am so tired of these environment already. My life is so quiet now and so happy about it.

My mind is so focus on my life's issues and all the important things I need to focus on with my life.

I know that daily living can never be perfect, but as long as I distance myself with these nonsense talk, I am good!!!

I don't care about anyone's life and whatever they do with themselves!!

Mocking Me

I just find it so interesting when I know within me that I really don't care about anybody on that place, yet an insecure woman can still see me... The funniest thing is when I heard her mock me,, hahhahah!!! I know it's me but I know what it means!!!! Hate!! Hate for nothing!!! Smiling at me and hating me behind my back, hahhaha!!! What a shame!!

I don't think I can give a nice smile to someone I hate, but she does!!! Isn't that a suffering??? And why does she Hate me?? It's probably because she can see something in me that she don't have, or she probably have, but hate to see in me.. waaahahahahah... My back is STRAIGHT!!! My spinal cord is STRAIGHT!!! hahahha!!!

I just go there to do my thing, and go home..

Happiness Is Us

It's annoying to hear someone talk indirectly about praying to be happy each day.He said it as if he was trying to rely his happiness on me??? What does he think of me??? A clown???..

Happiness starts with us. It's only us who can make ourselves happy and nobody else. And it's not everyday that you expect that life can be pleasing. Life sometimes makes us lonely and sad.

So he shouldn't expect me to be happy all the time knowing that I am going through some rough time in my life.

I hate it when someone is depending on me. Specially this kind of stupid way of thinking. Because I have nothing to do with anyone's happiness.

Standard Of My Life

Is it over? This is the never ending question in my head because I feel it will never end because of the so called NATURE that don't know, or I should say stupid enough to know my standard of RESPECT of feeling, all these time.

Yes, it is simple my standard that is probably bothering me inside. It is simply because I know exactly what I want and what I don't want in my life. I always try my best to understand everything and everyone around me without setting aside or forgetting what I want.

There is always an end to everything because everyone has a breaking point that love alone is not the answer.

Feeling Of Betrayal

That feeling that you thought you have a best friend for the rest of your life then suddenly it turn out that, this person is the one who will betray you and break your heart so deeply.

Everything makes you feel lost in a very dark room where you don't know where and how to get out.

Still hanging on with so much hope, wish and prayers that this struggle will soon end.

Life's Test

Life can never be perfect. I have been so happy and I was at the peck of my happiness until a test of life comes in, to challenge my faith. I have expected this to come because I know I am at the pick of my happiness and I thought that happiness will never end until this test of life comes in.

Oh yeeah, life can never be perfect. I know that my haters are so happy and so eager to know what ruins my happiness and I am not stupid to go on a detail of my life's issue. But right now, I am still alive and having so much hope that all this problems will be gone and more happiness will come,

Wait For Mercy

I thought it would be fun to update this blog for my regular snoopers or I should say, HATERS!!! hehehheeh

Nothing much here to say but simply peaceful and so happy. It's so good to be with someone who I feel is a real friend to me. Maybe I am right, maybe I am wrong. As long as I know that he is not a hater, negative, fake, envious, greedy and most of all, happy for me, then everything is good.

I just hope SHE will learn that life is all about being grateful for everything that God has given to us. Being happy for someone is a sign of gratefulness.

Being angry and negative about the things that you see from others, that you dont have, is a sign of negativity and enviousness.

Stop hating and judging other people specially those that didn't do any wrong to you. Look at yourself first before looking at someone...

Clean your heart and stop feeling for revenge. Focus on your life and wait until God see the pureness of your heart's desire and he will eventually have mercy on you.

I've been there and I know how it feels to be in the Dark. I can't thank God enough for all the wonderful things I have learned. I am now the Happiest.

Sunday Work

Hmmm it's Sunday once again and I am ready to go to bed in a bit.  Just some thoughts for my crazy snoopers. I am on my happiest because everything are falling in the right places. God is so goos

It's My Blessing

Just so funny how she reacted seeing my new signature bag.. She just can't compete so she have to go near to someone she thought would have more money that I do. Isn't that so stupid??? hahahah I wonder how she know who have more than the other? hahahhaha

I am just a regular hard working housewife who have a hardworking husband. We save and dont spend more than what we earn. I am so happy that me and my husband can provide what our kids need without disturbing anyone. It's a blessing.

It's also a blessing to have the opportunity to work double time so I can provide more for me and my family. So it's not a question why I can buy few luxury things for myself because I deserve it.

What about you bitch? Everything I have is your opposite.. It's your karma for being so ingitera!!!! It's your karma for being so ungrateful and unthankful for everything that God has given you. Buti nga sa iyo!!!

Quiet Life

I am so happy.. I feel so free from toxic person always beside me. So jealous. So envious. Pakielamera, ingitera... My life is so quiet now. I really dont care what other people say about me being close with a male instead of a female friend. These kind of thinking is so shallow. All I know is that, my life is soooo quiet.